The Forever Wound

This blog is not what it might seem to be, in the beginning of it. Read on.........


It was not something I expected. Not even something I would have imagined or predicted. A morning like every other was to become the first step into a deeper reality. A deeper understanding of God.


Since my 'death' in 1974 the entirety of my life has been a quest for Divine Union with God. To have been in that Presence and been 'put back' into this reality created such a dichotomy within me that, honestly, I had no choice but to chase the dream, so to speak. With that quiet voice as my constant companion, I followed every step asked of me. I ended up marveling over the degree of pain that I experienced by following what I call Divine Direction. It was, of course, a question in my mind. Why did the quest for God lead to such extreme pain? What was I meant to learn? And as the experiences grew in intensity, the question became almost moot. It is what it is until it isn't any more.

When I thought I had experienced the worst of the worst I think God must have shaken his finger at me with a 'no no no' gesture. Unfortunately, I didn't see that and so walked unknowingly into something that annihilated me completely. Of course it was meant to be. It was my destiny. And if I'd seen it coming of course I would have run the other way. But I wasn't meant to run the other way. I was meant to discover that the soul can be wounded and the soul can be scarred. I had not known that prior to my run-in with the most extreme pain God had to dole out. I spent two years trying to get to the lesson and understanding. And it was such an ah-ha moment when God touched me, on this morning, and explained, that I knew my life, possibly my soul, would never be the same.



I felt His Presence in a way I'd never felt it before. So physically in the room that every atom of my body reacted. I actually felt the cells inside me shift and change as they absorbed the truth that a visitation like no other was taking place. I stepped into my internal silence in a way I hadn't done in years and simply listened.

"There are wounds that change the soul. Yes. Every soul will encounter them. The quest for Oneness with God, for understanding of God, demands it. And every soul will survive it. Yes.

"It is not the dying of a loved one, for all souls are eternal and will meet again. It is not the loss of riches. It is not the hunger, the sickness, the murder, or the greed. It is not the expected pain.

"It is the experience of giving the gift of God through the love you offer and finding out that it has no value. It is not that you have no value, for that is a lie and is based upon the human experience, illusion, ego, and falsities of that temporary experience. It is the utter abandonment of all things temporary and the offering of all things eternal; and that offering receives not only a blind eye but an action akin to killing a soul. It is those moments when you offer the Infinite Soul and another Infinite Soul knowingly destroys with actions of non-love."

"Can you tell me why such an experience is necessary in order to know God?" I asked quietly.

"How can you know God if you do not know the scars of God? The scars that come when one Child can utterly disregard another Child of God. The scars of God when only Love is offered ... but remains unseen.

"One would be oblivious to Truth if one thought that existence and all of its events do not impact the Presence of God. If all is energy, and all energy impacts all energy, how could one assume that God is not impacted as well?"

The Voice grew quieter than a whisper. "God offers only love. How often is that accepted? All suffering caused by one Child upon another would end if all Children knew the love God offers. Can anyone possibly believe that God does not see the Child who turns away from the love of God that is offered?"



The words will forever echo in my soul. "How can you know God if you do not know the scars of God?"

Scars caused by indifference.

God is not indifferent.













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The Best Example of Illusion vs Reality That I Can Think Of.......

It's a pretty popular thought/concept/pondering ... is this reality an illusion? Are we living in some type of energetic 'cloud' where nothing exists and we are the ones creating the 'cloud?' Are we even existing or are we 'brains' living within ourselves, dreaming this Earth-experience?

Well, I don't have the definitive answer for that, though I have a lot of opinions. Since I don't have the ability to prove any of my thoughts (and who knows if they're right or wrong), I thought I'd ask for help in giving some insight into what we might actually APPLY to the current reality in which we live. This is the idea that came to me during the night .. a way to present my thoughts on Divine Perception vs human-brain-perception.

Let's say you and your lover decide you want to create a new life together. You both pack up everything and make plans to head out. You're beyond excited and so in love and everything seems directed by the Hand of God. You're all packed and ready to go, suitcases by the door, when you hear a car start outside. You look out and there goes your lover. Heading off into the proverbial sunset. He/she didn't just take the envelope that held your life savings. He/she took everything you ever believed in. Your self-worth. Your value. Your faith. Your belief in everything and everyone. Well, you get the picture.

'Reality' seems to tell you this.... You are hated to the degree that someone you love could discard you like a sack of garbage. You are less than nothing. You are unworthy. You cannot trust yourself. You cannot trust anyone else. There is everything wrong with you and nothing right with you. After all, wouldn't that be true if someone you love thinks you deserve to have your life and life savings stolen from you? If someone you love thinks you deserve to be left on the side of the road with nowhere to go and no one to go with? If you gave all that you had and, obviously, it wasn't enough? What is your value? What is your worth?

Let's add a little twist to the story. The one who left you standing alone with your life in your hands ... he/she is your 'Twin Flame.' The other half of your soul. The one Being in existence that you know is pure love. Pure love because the truth is that each of us, 'outside' of this reality we're currently experiencing, have the greatest love for ourselves (and, of course, the other half of our soul's infinite expression). This is the one person you instinctively know you can offer yourself to in the purest form of soul love there is. This is the other half of yourself, the one who is not capable of giving you anything but soul's love in return. The trust between you is infinite. Believable. And True. Or so it is .. 'outside' of this 'illusion' .. this world/reality that is here for the purpose of teaching our infinite souls.

Now we come to the Truth behind the illusion. Perhaps THIS is why people continue to poke around the topic of what is 'real' and what is not.

If we, here in this dirty, painful 'reality,' can learn to perceive our reality through the eyes of Infinite Soul, we have the power to change our life-experience. Perhaps we are here to learn how to be empowered no matter what 'illusion' seeks to dis-empower us?

Perhaps we are creating the greatest levels of suffering we can imagine (war, famine, murder, abuse, abandonment, betrayal .. and the list goes on and on) in order to understand that nothing whatsoever can destroy the real truth. Nothing we imagine/create can take away our power or keep us from the eventual 'success' of the Truth reigning over the 'illusion.' (Until .. perhaps .. the reality becomes .. never the two shall meet??? .. just a thought.......)

It may sound as though my mind is wandering as you continue reading but in actuality there is a string of thought that runs through every moment, every experience, every single second of my entire life. Everything .. everything .. is tied into everything else and everything pertains to my quest for spiritual understanding.

I am blessed beyond measure to have spent so much time on 'the other side.' It gave me time not only to 'hear' many great Truths, but to absorb them. I was able to bring those Truths back into this 'illusion,' if you want to call it that. My life then became a dichotomy. How is it possible that the greatest Truths of God and existence were so directly opposite of what was so real 'down here?' This blog is meant to touch on the possibility that the greatest Truths are hidden beneath the greatest pain. The pain is not the Truth. What it is trying to show you is the Truth.

As pure soul, every single person would understand that the pain handed back and forth between humans is not the truth. Not at all. As pure soul, we are the expression of Love. Love to a greater degree than can be named or measured or described. Here, on this planet, many are choosing to express the opposite of this truth. As we accept that, we have to ask why. As pure soul, we would never entertain a thought of war, or killing for sport, or destroying another person's life simply because we can. And so why do we do it?

I used to ask .. God, why do you allow this? I stopped doing that when I came to realize that God will allow people to create whatever they think they need to in the quest for knowledge and understanding. I came to realize that we are being given the choice to create hate or create love, which then turns things into .. why are we making this choice or that? This, I came to believe, is what is meant by 'free will.' Free will to choose how you want to express yourself within a 'region of reality' that allows you free expression. And that, of course, turns into a study of self-responsibility. The subject that is, perhaps, the most difficult for humans to look at.

When my thoughts wander to such avenues, my first thought is always .. then why don't we choose differently?

If 'reality' is an illusion then 'reality' is malleable. If we, as humans, are creating 'reality,' we have the power to create it differently. In an existence that is so large the human brain cannot contain the imagining of how large it is, do we really believe that pain is the only way to learn the greater Truths? Personally, I don't believe that to be the case. That being said, are we free to choose our beliefs? Absolutely.

I can sum it all up by saying ... we are infinite souls who know only love. We are not dis-empowered or destroyed by anything. If we think we are, we are living 'the illusion.' If we are creating 'the illusion,' we can create it differently. We can insert the Truths into the lies we tell ourselves and each other. In this way, we can change 'reality.' I am of the belief that we, as a society, a society that is consensually agreeing to 'out-picture reality,' are in a position of agreeing to create great change. I believe that some of our harshest and most painful lessons are playing out due to an all-out effort to prove that nothing can or will destroy us. No matter what lie we manifest outside of the Greater Truth of Love, the real truth will remain unwavering. Why then, do we not choose to create a reality that expresses that truth, instead of continuing to manifest lies to prove to ourselves that truth is truth? hummm .. I'm just sayin'.........

And while I'm in thinking-mode (smile) ... perhaps the one you would most trust would necessarily have to be the one who would 'destroy' you ... to show you that you cannot be destroyed.

PS: If I was to tell you how valuable God told me each of you are, while I was enjoying His Company on 'the other side,' you would have to listen to me yammer at you for a year or so. You are so much more valuable .. each of you .. than you can probably imagine. You are not the 'reality' you are living. You are an Aspect of God.





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The Heart's True Mission

My journey through time and space, during this lifetime, has been filled with things beyond what my 'imagination' might be capable of coming up with. That being said, the space of infinity often appears to be the same 'size' as the space taken up by an atom. I allow myself to live without limits. I allow my reality to breathe in and out, expanding to include infinity, or reducing my reality to a single atom. I'm saying this because it may take a slight adjustment in your thinking to follow the path laid out for me today. And I speak of this path because my thoughts could not help but travel to the many healers, the many who have sacrificed, the many who weep alone behind closed doors.

I found myself in a hallway. Or what I thought was a hallway. Darkened, with a floor of dirt the color of mahogany. The switch from one reality to another had been sudden and I stood for a moment, disoriented. I began to feel the residue of dried clay upon my skin. Brushing away what small bits were on me, I felt as though eyes were upon me. Looking up from my scrutiny of my dusty shoulder, I turned to my left. What I had thought was a wall was not. Blinking, I tried to take in the sight. Dozens upon dozens of people, baked into clay, encased in such a way that only their eyes moved. As I looked at each one, most of them turned away, unwilling to meet my eyes. With only eyes to be seen, I wasn't sure if I knew them or not. I felt the air move and sensed that there was a person who was free just a little further down the hallway. I walked toward him, a smile on my face as I recognized him.

"What are we doing here?" I asked. Unnerved by the sight of the encased people, I avoided looking in that direction again.

"This isn't a hallway," he told me. "This is your heart's main artery."

Shocked, I simply stared at him in confusion.

He waved his hand in the direction of the clay wall. "This wall is actually made up of people's indifference. Some .. many .. are those who dismissed you or thought you irrelevant. Your goal was love. The goal of all souls, if the truth be told, is only love, And I can tell you this ... if human indifference was eradicated in the human race, the trauma of heart dis-ease would be radically reduced, if not eliminated entirely." He noticed, of course, my stare of disbelief as I tried to absorb the enormity of what he was suggesting. "It's true," he insisted. "The human heart was meant to carry the frequency of Universal Love into this dimension, into this reality. The fact that there is an inordinate amount of indifference in the human reality causes the innate desire of the heart to change its energy. It is meant to beat only with the knowing and vibration of love. Living with, and having to adjust to, or accept, indifference causes it to take on an unnatural pain and manifest it as a 'disease.'

I could not stop the images of a dozen people I knew who wanted only to love but who had learned the word 'indifference.' A dozen images. Two dozen images. One hundred. And soon there were too many to count.

The experience went on to include a journey to the edge of infinity, with many stops along the way as I learned from Masters in every dimension. My own experiences taught me as I traveled. I wept with other aspects of myself in other worlds. This Earth-experience .. for all of us .. reverberates through all time and space. In communion with God I faced the energy of indifference and allowed my heart to be healed.

I thought of writing more here on this blog. But everything within me tells me to keep it simple. Every person reading this knows the rest of the story, somewhere in their heart. And every person knows the possibility of hope that lives in the wisdom of the hallway, the gateway to the heart. I will just repeat what was said ...... "....if human indifference was eradicated in the human race, the trauma of heart dis-ease would be radically reduced, if not eliminated entirely."





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Pieces

As each person works to release 'the old' and embrace 'the new,' in this on-going quest to evolve, memories surface. For me, personally, my life took a turn that I could never have predicted. It had been my forever-dream to be a singer. That all changed when I walked in the door and saw a gun pointed at me.

On this cold, rainy, gray morning, that dream re-surfaced with a tang of regret to season the otherwise dreary day. As I sat thinking about how 'the path' had changed a vision took over.

Before me sat a pile of blue, broken pieces of glass. Hands reached into the pile and, one by one, picked each piece up and, with silver solder, began to 'weld' each piece to the next. Within minutes, the broken pieces had been formed into a beautiful, stained glass window.

A voice spoke. "The picture may not be the one you thought you'd see, but it is beautiful nonetheless."

Indeed.

Set regret aside. The picture of who you truly are, despite what it may look like to you, or to anyone else, is beautiful in the eyes of God, in the eyes of your own Infinite Soul.

Lauren Zimmerman
Life-after-Death Survivor
Author, Artist
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